3/30/2012 - Lik has already left us for 10 days.  In the past few days, I have developed an odd behavior.  At around 5'ish in the morning, as well as 5'ish in the evening, I would sit on the scratch pad and see if Lik would come and fight like the old days.  It has disappointed me every time and I even find this habit a bit weird.  May be I am blaming myself for not being smart enough to pinpoint the reasons why Lik would leave me, or I am having a bipolar disorder?  I know and have acknowledged that Lik would not return, but it seems I am just playing ostrich by looping myself in denial?  I don't know...

Since 2004, as stated in previous posts, I have seen my siblings and other cats not returning home after becoming seriously sick, but Lik's departure has really changed my habits, behaviors, and daily life.  Though there have been precedences when one would return home after becoming ill, like Lung.  5 years ago today (3/30/2007), Lung felt tired and lethargic.  As big and strong as him, he could barely walk from the sofa to the water bowl (about 15 steps away).  He just sat there all day long.

All of us wondered what happened to Lung at the time.  So Bart beared with him on the sofa while I guarded and intervened any interactions with him from any living creatures.